[ He offers a small smile in return before returning to his food. ]
We don't usually get a chance to see the way somebody has changed since they were a child without seeing the in-between. I'm not saying you're better or worse than I expected, but you didn't seem interested in fighting before.
If it helps, I didn't learn most of this shit back home. [ She wasn't willing to impart to him just how bad Alessa's life had gotten just days after her meeting with Light or how it's defined Sharon's whole life since and always will. ] I ran into some trouble my second month and realized I couldn't just survive here on what I knew back home. I needed to be better.
It's probably happened to a lot of people out here. If they come from worlds without magic or danger, it's a culture shock. Even though I'm in law enforcement, I'd never had to fight a monster. Not a literal one.
But I'm not sure that was the case with you. You said that you could do things like me even before you came here.
[ She falls quiet for a long moment, lips pursing. ]
It was mostly the same for me. Sure, I was born with psychic powers, but that... [ Hm. ] I hadn't met anyone with anything like magic before I came here. [ That took a long time to adjust to. ] You can imagine how isolating that experience is for a kid. Especially a kid born into a religious cult that prided itself on its past for burning witches alive.
I think it would be insulting to say I can fully imagine, but I know it would be hard. I've seen what happened to kids born into religious cults even if they didn't have psychic powers.
[ Thankfully, not so much in Japan. Still, he's done case studies from other countries. ]
Most of them don't have a very easy time trying to become a part of society. They're used to thinking of everybody else as outsiders.
It was kind of the opposite for me. I've had trouble becoming part of society because I feel like an outsider. [ She shrugs. ] Doesn't help that I've spent most of my life on the run from said cult and living under a variety of aliases so I couldn't get close to people until I wound up here.
Still feel like an outsider but... It's not as bad.
In a way, you are an outsider, but we all are. You belong to a much larger group, now. But even if you didn't, being an outsider doesn't mean you'll always be an outsider.
I have to ask: have you tried reporting them to the cops?
[ Her lips purse at that. She's not entirely sure whether or not she believes that. But she laughs at the question. ]
That's where shit gets complicated, Light. You think the cops would believe my dad and me if we told them I was being hunted by a cult that exists almost solely in another reality because they think I can give birth to their god? Because I think we'd get locked up.
just a warning that this topic is getting kind of heavy
If both of you believed it, I'd investigate under the assumption that you believed they were from another reality. Having some details about the case wrong doesn't mean there's no crime. If they'd told you they thought you'd be the one to give birth to their god, that's even more reason to take it seriously.
[ The look Sharon gives him in response is knowing, like she expected it. It feels like an innocent response to the reality she's known but she doesn't fault him for it. ]
See, you'd investigate it but you wouldn't believe it. I'd wind up separated from my dad because we'd technically been missing for the last nine years. The last time they had even a hint of us would've been when I was 15 and we'd left a man dead who had attacked us in our home. And it doesn't matter if the crimes were committed in self-defense if you'd run from the crime scene. That's kind of suspect, isn't it?
I've seen what happens when someone interferes with them. Some PI got involved. Found us for them. Found me. [ She has to pause a moment. The memory still weighs heavily upon her. That was the first time, as Sharon, that she had blood on her hands. ] He died the same day he decided to warn me.
[ She shrugs. ] No one believes in monsters until it's too late.
[ Light started with the question worded in a way that suggested he understood it might be more complicated than simply allowing the cops to handle it. ]
It's usually the criminals who are fleeing.
The justice system isn't perfect.
[ The smile is both understanding and a little sad for it. ]
It's the best thing we have to keep people safe, and I understand why the cops would have separated you from him. I understand why he'd be the most likely suspect in the death of the man in your home. A young girl worried about someone trying to impregnate her for any reason would be the main focus. You'd get more understanding, he'd get more suspicion. Usually, all of those things would be the right decisions.
Sometimes, it means the system is wrong. It sounds like you've been failed by a few systems.
[ But Sharon isn't the kind of woman who wants pity, is she? ]
Sorry, I know I asked about something personal. If I can ask one more question, I'll let you talk about all the different colors of gray paint instead.
[ The smile switches to something a little more teasing, a little more light. ]
I know. [ The words are almost mournful. She knows the justice system isn't perfect. She knows the system can be wrong. Most of all, she knows she's been failed by too many systems in her life, from childhood to young adulthood. And she's used to it.
At the question, she releases a thoughtful sigh, something distant in her gaze. When her eyes return to him, she smiles faintly. ]
Well, the vast majority of them are dead and I killed all their leaders so... [ A shrug. She says it so factually and it lacks any cockiness. ] Yeah, I'd say it did. Better than what I had expected. [ It could've gone so much worse. She managed to save her dad and that was the only thing that really mattered. Claudia's death was just a bonus in her mind. ]
They might one day manage to regroup but there are so few of them left and they don't even know how to leave that hell they're in so I never have to worry about them again unless one of them winds up here.
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[ He offers a small smile in return before returning to his food. ]
We don't usually get a chance to see the way somebody has changed since they were a child without seeing the in-between. I'm not saying you're better or worse than I expected, but you didn't seem interested in fighting before.
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So. [ A shrug ] I became better.
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It's probably happened to a lot of people out here. If they come from worlds without magic or danger, it's a culture shock. Even though I'm in law enforcement, I'd never had to fight a monster. Not a literal one.
But I'm not sure that was the case with you. You said that you could do things like me even before you came here.
[ When she was still a child. ]
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It was mostly the same for me. Sure, I was born with psychic powers, but that... [ Hm. ] I hadn't met anyone with anything like magic before I came here. [ That took a long time to adjust to. ] You can imagine how isolating that experience is for a kid. Especially a kid born into a religious cult that prided itself on its past for burning witches alive.
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[ Thankfully, not so much in Japan. Still, he's done case studies from other countries. ]
Most of them don't have a very easy time trying to become a part of society. They're used to thinking of everybody else as outsiders.
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Still feel like an outsider but... It's not as bad.
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I have to ask: have you tried reporting them to the cops?
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That's where shit gets complicated, Light. You think the cops would believe my dad and me if we told them I was being hunted by a cult that exists almost solely in another reality because they think I can give birth to their god? Because I think we'd get locked up.
just a warning that this topic is getting kind of heavy
lemme know if anything makes you uncomfortable!
See, you'd investigate it but you wouldn't believe it. I'd wind up separated from my dad because we'd technically been missing for the last nine years. The last time they had even a hint of us would've been when I was 15 and we'd left a man dead who had attacked us in our home. And it doesn't matter if the crimes were committed in self-defense if you'd run from the crime scene. That's kind of suspect, isn't it?
I've seen what happens when someone interferes with them. Some PI got involved. Found us for them. Found me. [ She has to pause a moment. The memory still weighs heavily upon her. That was the first time, as Sharon, that she had blood on her hands. ] He died the same day he decided to warn me.
[ She shrugs. ] No one believes in monsters until it's too late.
very few things are; i just wanted to warn you <3
[ Light started with the question worded in a way that suggested he understood it might be more complicated than simply allowing the cops to handle it. ]
It's usually the criminals who are fleeing.
The justice system isn't perfect.
[ The smile is both understanding and a little sad for it. ]
It's the best thing we have to keep people safe, and I understand why the cops would have separated you from him. I understand why he'd be the most likely suspect in the death of the man in your home. A young girl worried about someone trying to impregnate her for any reason would be the main focus. You'd get more understanding, he'd get more suspicion. Usually, all of those things would be the right decisions.
Sometimes, it means the system is wrong. It sounds like you've been failed by a few systems.
[ But Sharon isn't the kind of woman who wants pity, is she? ]
Sorry, I know I asked about something personal. If I can ask one more question, I'll let you talk about all the different colors of gray paint instead.
[ The smile switches to something a little more teasing, a little more light. ]
Did it end well?
ah! appreciate it!
At the question, she releases a thoughtful sigh, something distant in her gaze. When her eyes return to him, she smiles faintly. ]
Well, the vast majority of them are dead and I killed all their leaders so... [ A shrug. She says it so factually and it lacks any cockiness. ] Yeah, I'd say it did. Better than what I had expected. [ It could've gone so much worse. She managed to save her dad and that was the only thing that really mattered. Claudia's death was just a bonus in her mind. ]
They might one day manage to regroup but there are so few of them left and they don't even know how to leave that hell they're in so I never have to worry about them again unless one of them winds up here.